Wednesday, July 8, 2009

Why should I?

Why do some people do as people ask of them, and others do it sometimes?

I am struggling with this lately. I work with kids, and I love them to death. They are some of the best kids I know. But why when you talk to them, they turn around and do the same thing you just asked them not to do?

Why is it when you ask someone to do something, they dont do it, and when they ask for you to do something they expect it to happen. I am so sick and tired of being stood up, forgotten about, and having to wait on people that I am just starting to give up. If they do it to me, why should I not do it back? Does it make me less of a person if I start treating them, like they treat me?

There are some things in life I am fully prepared for...
- Justin's deployment this fall
- I will not die hungry
- The cable goes out (I think I have plenty of movies to keep me happy for months)

And there are some things in life I am not prepared for...
- my husband leaving for work for a month (and finding out the day before)
- the power going out for more than a day (how would I communicate with the world)
- my mood swings and other peoples mood swings

I admit, I am moody. I have known that since I was 15. Ask anyone I know, they know how moody I can get. I mean I am not even allowed to take naps because I ALWAYS wake up crabby. If I am moody, how do I deal with moody people? I used to be this nice sweet innocent girl, but over the years, I have learned to be more and more vocal about things. Not anything political (I could care less about that). But about people. One summer while I was in college, I learned from a friend of mine (well more like a frienemy --- we did not get along) that it was ok to be a little mean from time to time. To tell people that you did not like to be treated like that. Looking back on my life people walked all over me. They pushed me around, asked me to do things I didnt want to do just because they didnt want to do it. And this person taught me that I just have to be me, and if I didnt like it, well I should tell them. This person helped me reach a new stage in my life. If this person were still around I dont know if we would talk. But I learned so much from them that I will never forget what they did for me.

I believe everyone comes into someones life for a reason. To learn valuable life lessons. I have some of the best of friends. I have some of the greatest family. I have had many life challenges and have succeeded at most. Some I have failed, and some I have learned some of the most important things I know.

My husband, one of the greatest men I know. I have learned so much from him. He is my best friend and he has seen me through almost everything. I can not wait to share the rest of my life with him. I know I can always go to him whenever I need to vent, because I do know that the internet is not the best place for that. Luckily my blog is not the most popular blog either. If I had the dedication, I would write a book. Which is something I might be able to do when Justin deploys (but I am not good with my words-- or my train of thought). What was I just talking about... seriously?

Anyways, in final, should one be nice to everyone, even if it means being stepped on? Or should they treat them like the other treats them?
 

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