So I have my new favorite candle smell (and its not a cookie!!), Napa Valley Harvest!! It is amazing, fruity but at the same time classic. My house is now a classy place, a little alcoholic ish, but delicious. I guess I could say its grapey, but so yummy! Just soo many words describe the smell. I wish I could just post a scratch and sniff button, but instead you will need to go to Yankee Candle and smell the goods yourself.
Life has been so busy. Plans are constantly changing, work seems to be getting super busy, I have to keep up with my social life, and clean this house I can't seem to keep clean... ah, life. Crazyness. I think I need like a week to myself. No work. No people. I think I should just turn off my phone for a couple of days. Maybe I will, but I need the alarm clock. hm. I wish I could take a week, and just blah with my life. Clean, organize, play, get back to my real self.
Who is my real self? Who am I and what do I like to do for fun? Am I still the same person I was 5 years ago? What have I done with that person? Do I like the person I am now?
What are my life goals? Who do I want to be? Why am I not suprised anymore when someone calls me to tell me they are pregnant? Should I be more happy for them? Is life all about having kids?
I have come to the decision that I live for my husband. He is my best friend. Without him, I don't know who I would be. When he is not around, I am not myself. I look forward to growing old with him. Every moment we share together is always a good time. Whether we are just sitting on the couch trying to figure out what to watch on tv, or in the middle of nowhere lost and and out of gas. I love him with all my heart and I could have never asked for anyone better.
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Friday, February 12, 2010
why do I think I can do this
for some reason I think that I can actually have a blog. But honestly, this is not true. I do not ever know what to say, and half the things I want to say, I can't so why do I do this. It is now February. Four months since my last post, and i feel like it has been only a few weeks. I have been so busy. I am trying to keep myself busy so time will go by, but I think I have over done myself.
I really hate being by myself. I have always loved having people around. I go crazy without people. For that reason alone, I find myself busy. Its weeks like this preparing for company, that I wish I had more time. More time to get it together. More time to sleep. More time to not wake up at 4 in the morning, and go to bed by 9. I use my weekends to catch up on sleep, but I cant do it too much or I wont get up on Mondays. It sucks. Weekly I have found that I put almost 500 miles on my car, and am in my car for at least 2 hours a day (making that 10 hours a week) --- and that is only driving to work. I can't take naps (they make me cranky my mom says).
Anyways. boring. i know. I am watching the olympics. I thought I would be watching the opening ceremony, but apparently that happened while I was at work. Now I get to watch ski jumping --- yawn. I am also not hungry, which is odd because I love food. I do not know how excited I am yet about the Olympics only being a few hours from our house. I guess once people get into town it will be all crazy.
Oh guess what! I get to watch the opening ceremony. I think, that is what the tv said, but how come its on in MN two hour earlier, when the olympics are in MY TIME ZONE!! (and 2 hours away!) ok - im going to watch, and go to bed in a hour. outta here.
I really hate being by myself. I have always loved having people around. I go crazy without people. For that reason alone, I find myself busy. Its weeks like this preparing for company, that I wish I had more time. More time to get it together. More time to sleep. More time to not wake up at 4 in the morning, and go to bed by 9. I use my weekends to catch up on sleep, but I cant do it too much or I wont get up on Mondays. It sucks. Weekly I have found that I put almost 500 miles on my car, and am in my car for at least 2 hours a day (making that 10 hours a week) --- and that is only driving to work. I can't take naps (they make me cranky my mom says).
Anyways. boring. i know. I am watching the olympics. I thought I would be watching the opening ceremony, but apparently that happened while I was at work. Now I get to watch ski jumping --- yawn. I am also not hungry, which is odd because I love food. I do not know how excited I am yet about the Olympics only being a few hours from our house. I guess once people get into town it will be all crazy.
Oh guess what! I get to watch the opening ceremony. I think, that is what the tv said, but how come its on in MN two hour earlier, when the olympics are in MY TIME ZONE!! (and 2 hours away!) ok - im going to watch, and go to bed in a hour. outta here.
Saturday, November 28, 2009
Cricut
I ordered my Cricut Expression finally! I have been super excited about it, and I am so happy to be getting it. It might just be a new thing that I will take up. I feel like I can do so much with it. Now all I have to do is sit and wait for it to come to me!
Everything lately has been going good. I am learning to stay busy. Thank god for this long weekend, when I finally found time to play the new Sims 3 World Adventure. I do want to continue to play it, but I have found myself super busy with a million other things to do.
Thanksgiving was at my house, and I am pretty sure I broke the garbage disposal. Stupid potato peels. I will have to figure out how to fix that soon, so I have a working sink again. That means I have held off doing some dishes (which is probably not the best choice). So that is one thing on my list to do. Secondly, I need to do some laundry. I am completely out of socks (well at least good socks). Third, the house is a mess, so many papers, and just stuff that needs to find a "home" somewhere in this house. Justin didn't really clean much before he left. Which means I have no idea what half of the papers in the office are. Most of them just have little diagrams, and words that I never even knew existed on them. So beats me what they are!
Lucie is a mopey puppy. Cute as ever, but likes to just sleep all day! (which is good for me). She has been next to me for about an hour, and I didn't even realize it. And she matches the couch perfectly.
I have to start figuring out Christmas presents for my family. I think I only have a couple that I have figured out what to get them. My mom, and Ian. The rest, I dont even know where to start. I think for my family, I am by far, the easiest to shop for. There are so many things that I want, could use, or never knew existed and I want. But for those who have everything, I dont know what to get. I asked my dad for a flashlight. Yep, thats right, this year for christmas, I want a FLASHLIGHT. A big heavy one. So I can use it as a weapon if need be (well thats what I told my dad). I think I want one because I only have a tiny little thing that flickers, I even just put in new batteries. So it must not like me much.
I think I have blabbed long enough about the things I need to do, so maybe I should actually do them if I am going to go to the movies tonight. Plus, I should get my christmas cards in the mail. I can stick 100 envelopes in my mailbox right?
Later.
Everything lately has been going good. I am learning to stay busy. Thank god for this long weekend, when I finally found time to play the new Sims 3 World Adventure. I do want to continue to play it, but I have found myself super busy with a million other things to do.
Thanksgiving was at my house, and I am pretty sure I broke the garbage disposal. Stupid potato peels. I will have to figure out how to fix that soon, so I have a working sink again. That means I have held off doing some dishes (which is probably not the best choice). So that is one thing on my list to do. Secondly, I need to do some laundry. I am completely out of socks (well at least good socks). Third, the house is a mess, so many papers, and just stuff that needs to find a "home" somewhere in this house. Justin didn't really clean much before he left. Which means I have no idea what half of the papers in the office are. Most of them just have little diagrams, and words that I never even knew existed on them. So beats me what they are!
Lucie is a mopey puppy. Cute as ever, but likes to just sleep all day! (which is good for me). She has been next to me for about an hour, and I didn't even realize it. And she matches the couch perfectly.
I have to start figuring out Christmas presents for my family. I think I only have a couple that I have figured out what to get them. My mom, and Ian. The rest, I dont even know where to start. I think for my family, I am by far, the easiest to shop for. There are so many things that I want, could use, or never knew existed and I want. But for those who have everything, I dont know what to get. I asked my dad for a flashlight. Yep, thats right, this year for christmas, I want a FLASHLIGHT. A big heavy one. So I can use it as a weapon if need be (well thats what I told my dad). I think I want one because I only have a tiny little thing that flickers, I even just put in new batteries. So it must not like me much.
I think I have blabbed long enough about the things I need to do, so maybe I should actually do them if I am going to go to the movies tonight. Plus, I should get my christmas cards in the mail. I can stick 100 envelopes in my mailbox right?
Later.
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Why should I?
Why do some people do as people ask of them, and others do it sometimes?
I am struggling with this lately. I work with kids, and I love them to death. They are some of the best kids I know. But why when you talk to them, they turn around and do the same thing you just asked them not to do?
Why is it when you ask someone to do something, they dont do it, and when they ask for you to do something they expect it to happen. I am so sick and tired of being stood up, forgotten about, and having to wait on people that I am just starting to give up. If they do it to me, why should I not do it back? Does it make me less of a person if I start treating them, like they treat me?
There are some things in life I am fully prepared for...
- Justin's deployment this fall
- I will not die hungry
- The cable goes out (I think I have plenty of movies to keep me happy for months)
And there are some things in life I am not prepared for...
- my husband leaving for work for a month (and finding out the day before)
- the power going out for more than a day (how would I communicate with the world)
- my mood swings and other peoples mood swings
I admit, I am moody. I have known that since I was 15. Ask anyone I know, they know how moody I can get. I mean I am not even allowed to take naps because I ALWAYS wake up crabby. If I am moody, how do I deal with moody people? I used to be this nice sweet innocent girl, but over the years, I have learned to be more and more vocal about things. Not anything political (I could care less about that). But about people. One summer while I was in college, I learned from a friend of mine (well more like a frienemy --- we did not get along) that it was ok to be a little mean from time to time. To tell people that you did not like to be treated like that. Looking back on my life people walked all over me. They pushed me around, asked me to do things I didnt want to do just because they didnt want to do it. And this person taught me that I just have to be me, and if I didnt like it, well I should tell them. This person helped me reach a new stage in my life. If this person were still around I dont know if we would talk. But I learned so much from them that I will never forget what they did for me.
I believe everyone comes into someones life for a reason. To learn valuable life lessons. I have some of the best of friends. I have some of the greatest family. I have had many life challenges and have succeeded at most. Some I have failed, and some I have learned some of the most important things I know.
My husband, one of the greatest men I know. I have learned so much from him. He is my best friend and he has seen me through almost everything. I can not wait to share the rest of my life with him. I know I can always go to him whenever I need to vent, because I do know that the internet is not the best place for that. Luckily my blog is not the most popular blog either. If I had the dedication, I would write a book. Which is something I might be able to do when Justin deploys (but I am not good with my words-- or my train of thought). What was I just talking about... seriously?
Anyways, in final, should one be nice to everyone, even if it means being stepped on? Or should they treat them like the other treats them?
I am struggling with this lately. I work with kids, and I love them to death. They are some of the best kids I know. But why when you talk to them, they turn around and do the same thing you just asked them not to do?
Why is it when you ask someone to do something, they dont do it, and when they ask for you to do something they expect it to happen. I am so sick and tired of being stood up, forgotten about, and having to wait on people that I am just starting to give up. If they do it to me, why should I not do it back? Does it make me less of a person if I start treating them, like they treat me?
There are some things in life I am fully prepared for...
- Justin's deployment this fall
- I will not die hungry
- The cable goes out (I think I have plenty of movies to keep me happy for months)
And there are some things in life I am not prepared for...
- my husband leaving for work for a month (and finding out the day before)
- the power going out for more than a day (how would I communicate with the world)
- my mood swings and other peoples mood swings
I admit, I am moody. I have known that since I was 15. Ask anyone I know, they know how moody I can get. I mean I am not even allowed to take naps because I ALWAYS wake up crabby. If I am moody, how do I deal with moody people? I used to be this nice sweet innocent girl, but over the years, I have learned to be more and more vocal about things. Not anything political (I could care less about that). But about people. One summer while I was in college, I learned from a friend of mine (well more like a frienemy --- we did not get along) that it was ok to be a little mean from time to time. To tell people that you did not like to be treated like that. Looking back on my life people walked all over me. They pushed me around, asked me to do things I didnt want to do just because they didnt want to do it. And this person taught me that I just have to be me, and if I didnt like it, well I should tell them. This person helped me reach a new stage in my life. If this person were still around I dont know if we would talk. But I learned so much from them that I will never forget what they did for me.
I believe everyone comes into someones life for a reason. To learn valuable life lessons. I have some of the best of friends. I have some of the greatest family. I have had many life challenges and have succeeded at most. Some I have failed, and some I have learned some of the most important things I know.
My husband, one of the greatest men I know. I have learned so much from him. He is my best friend and he has seen me through almost everything. I can not wait to share the rest of my life with him. I know I can always go to him whenever I need to vent, because I do know that the internet is not the best place for that. Luckily my blog is not the most popular blog either. If I had the dedication, I would write a book. Which is something I might be able to do when Justin deploys (but I am not good with my words-- or my train of thought). What was I just talking about... seriously?
Anyways, in final, should one be nice to everyone, even if it means being stepped on? Or should they treat them like the other treats them?
Thursday, June 11, 2009
Murder Mystery
It's Murder Mystery night! I am going as a young actress who turned 18, rebelled, and went to rehab. Thanks to my amazing agent, I got out of rehab and headed to "margaritaland"... like that's gonna stop me from doing what I did before rehab.
So I got my costume and I hope all of the pieces got well together... hannah montana wig, star earrings, hot pink lipstick, and plenty of glitter! Oh I can't wait.
I will let you know how it turns out :)
So I got my costume and I hope all of the pieces got well together... hannah montana wig, star earrings, hot pink lipstick, and plenty of glitter! Oh I can't wait.
I will let you know how it turns out :)
Monday, June 8, 2009
I have to keep updated
Well, It has been some time. I think I am just trying to get into a routine, but I don't think that will really happen. I love what I do, but I am still trying to figure out the entire scheduling thing. I understand that I am the newbie, so I am floated around here and there. I am really excited about the summer. I think my hours will be more regular, which would be very nice. But then again, there are no guarantees.
Lucie got to sleep in our bed one night this weekend. She was sooo happy! She didn't even have an accident. But I am still so paranoid, that I had to keep her in her kennel the rest of the nights. I would love to have her sleep on the bed when Justin is deployed, I just don't want her peeing on it :).
I also can't believe that is 20 days will be our 1 year wedding anniversary. Boy do times fly! I can't believe it was already a year ago. It still feels like it was not even six months ago.
Oh, and new news to announce. Ann McGrath is engaged!! I have been awaiting this day for quite some time. Luckily she has a really sweet guy, and I think they make a great pair. I can't wait for their wedding, I am sure it will be a great time!
On Thursday I have a mystery murder party to go to. I get to go as the young hollywood actress that escaped rehab and is now living it up in caribean. But I guess I started drinking again. For a non alcoholic party with work staff, this could be interesting... I guess I will have to work on getting my costume together. Hopefully I can still fit into my gold dress. If not, I guess I will have to wear my blue one from the dining out.
The best news ever!! --- The Sims 3 is out!! I have it. I have played it, and oh, I LOVE it! The only thing that bugs me is that is randomly just stops working. It has to do something with the computer because Justin says that happens sometimes. SO I have learned to be a saving freak.
My work schedule got screwed up again, I was supossed to be in earlier, but it never got changed... so they called me, and it was almost the time to leave for the normal time. I thought about going to Oak Harbor in case that happened ((it happened to me last week too) -- I wasnt schduled but they scheduled me), but I have some time in between tomorrow, so I decided not to go. I should've though. I was so worked up about get my forms notarized, that it completely slipped my mind to even ask.
Well, I should be getting ready for work, I need to leave in a few minutes. Ciao my friends that are reading this. And if you are let me know!
Lucie got to sleep in our bed one night this weekend. She was sooo happy! She didn't even have an accident. But I am still so paranoid, that I had to keep her in her kennel the rest of the nights. I would love to have her sleep on the bed when Justin is deployed, I just don't want her peeing on it :).
I also can't believe that is 20 days will be our 1 year wedding anniversary. Boy do times fly! I can't believe it was already a year ago. It still feels like it was not even six months ago.
Oh, and new news to announce. Ann McGrath is engaged!! I have been awaiting this day for quite some time. Luckily she has a really sweet guy, and I think they make a great pair. I can't wait for their wedding, I am sure it will be a great time!
On Thursday I have a mystery murder party to go to. I get to go as the young hollywood actress that escaped rehab and is now living it up in caribean. But I guess I started drinking again. For a non alcoholic party with work staff, this could be interesting... I guess I will have to work on getting my costume together. Hopefully I can still fit into my gold dress. If not, I guess I will have to wear my blue one from the dining out.
The best news ever!! --- The Sims 3 is out!! I have it. I have played it, and oh, I LOVE it! The only thing that bugs me is that is randomly just stops working. It has to do something with the computer because Justin says that happens sometimes. SO I have learned to be a saving freak.
My work schedule got screwed up again, I was supossed to be in earlier, but it never got changed... so they called me, and it was almost the time to leave for the normal time. I thought about going to Oak Harbor in case that happened ((it happened to me last week too) -- I wasnt schduled but they scheduled me), but I have some time in between tomorrow, so I decided not to go. I should've though. I was so worked up about get my forms notarized, that it completely slipped my mind to even ask.
Well, I should be getting ready for work, I need to leave in a few minutes. Ciao my friends that are reading this. And if you are let me know!
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
Husband is out of town
Well, yesterday Justin found out he had to fly some plane somewhere. So, he is gone, he flew a plane across the country and he will be back tomorrow. There is nothing like an impromptu trip. So, I have had the house and the dog to myself for sometime now.
The dog won't stop whining, thinking dad will be home soon... but little does she know that soon will not be until tomorrow afternoon. So for now she will just have to keep chewing on her bone, very noisily.
ANTM season finale was on tonight. I really wanted Allison to win, but I am still happy for the outcome. I think Teyona wanted it much more than anyone else, so I am so happy for her. I am sure she will be a great model. I am excited for the next ANTM, I mean short models, how awesome is that going to be to watch.
So, I am still completely freaked out of the dark and the outdoors in the dark, well I guess I have only been afraid since I thought I heard a dog barking not too far from our house a couple weeks ago, and it turns out its a coyote. A COYOTE, freak me out! Seriously. I wish no one told me that. I just got over my dog fear, and now I am going to have to get over a coyote fear.
Sue and I had dinner together. I love pasta and I swear I could eat it everyday if I had to. I love pasta, it just doesn't love my waistline. Speaking of waistlines, I am hoping to shrink mine soon. I am kinda upset that I now have to work hard to get awesome abs, but first things first is getting rid of these ugly love handles. I would kill to have my body I had in 2002. If only I could go back in time. What would I do differently to get my hot body... um, learn to workout, and somehow enjoy it, so I dont have to do it now, when I am over weight, and out of shape... My goal is to look hot a year from now, which is when my husband should be coming home from his first deployment. I would love to be the hot wife I used to be when we started dating. Even being smaller than that would be awesome. Is it possible to lose 50 lbs in a year? I guess I will find out, starting June 1st. If anyone has some awesome diet plans with simple workout stuff, let me know. I need to do something!!
Our hosue is finally coming together. I have learned that sliding doors are not my friend. Not only did I break my aunt and uncles door (luckily my dad helped me fix it). I snapped the plastice off of our sliding door handle. I hope you can buy that peice and its an easy fix. THe bummer things about renting is that I have to do it, especially if we are going to be here for another two and a half years...
Oh and I did I mention the dog is still wandering the house whimpering and looking for dad. Some reason she doesn't understand me when I say he will not be home tonight. I hope she is not too bad when I leave to go to Hoefer's wedding.
I keep thinking of things I need to inform the world about but anyways, I broke some plastic thing on my laptop. I really hope its not important, cause I think I might cry. Ok, I wont cry, because I am pretty sure its not important.
Well, I should probably head to bed soon, I have to work at 9 in the morning... starting next week I actually work real hours and get to observe classrooms!! Yeah, I finally get to get into my work and be a professional.
I really got to learn what all these silly noises my dog makes means. I think right now it means, WHERE IS DADDY?? I MISS HIM!!! soon puppy, soon. but not soon enough, just wait till he leaves us for 6 months. Fritz is going through that right now.
Much love and see you in a week Minnesota :)
The dog won't stop whining, thinking dad will be home soon... but little does she know that soon will not be until tomorrow afternoon. So for now she will just have to keep chewing on her bone, very noisily.
ANTM season finale was on tonight. I really wanted Allison to win, but I am still happy for the outcome. I think Teyona wanted it much more than anyone else, so I am so happy for her. I am sure she will be a great model. I am excited for the next ANTM, I mean short models, how awesome is that going to be to watch.
So, I am still completely freaked out of the dark and the outdoors in the dark, well I guess I have only been afraid since I thought I heard a dog barking not too far from our house a couple weeks ago, and it turns out its a coyote. A COYOTE, freak me out! Seriously. I wish no one told me that. I just got over my dog fear, and now I am going to have to get over a coyote fear.
Sue and I had dinner together. I love pasta and I swear I could eat it everyday if I had to. I love pasta, it just doesn't love my waistline. Speaking of waistlines, I am hoping to shrink mine soon. I am kinda upset that I now have to work hard to get awesome abs, but first things first is getting rid of these ugly love handles. I would kill to have my body I had in 2002. If only I could go back in time. What would I do differently to get my hot body... um, learn to workout, and somehow enjoy it, so I dont have to do it now, when I am over weight, and out of shape... My goal is to look hot a year from now, which is when my husband should be coming home from his first deployment. I would love to be the hot wife I used to be when we started dating. Even being smaller than that would be awesome. Is it possible to lose 50 lbs in a year? I guess I will find out, starting June 1st. If anyone has some awesome diet plans with simple workout stuff, let me know. I need to do something!!
Our hosue is finally coming together. I have learned that sliding doors are not my friend. Not only did I break my aunt and uncles door (luckily my dad helped me fix it). I snapped the plastice off of our sliding door handle. I hope you can buy that peice and its an easy fix. THe bummer things about renting is that I have to do it, especially if we are going to be here for another two and a half years...
Oh and I did I mention the dog is still wandering the house whimpering and looking for dad. Some reason she doesn't understand me when I say he will not be home tonight. I hope she is not too bad when I leave to go to Hoefer's wedding.
I keep thinking of things I need to inform the world about but anyways, I broke some plastic thing on my laptop. I really hope its not important, cause I think I might cry. Ok, I wont cry, because I am pretty sure its not important.
Well, I should probably head to bed soon, I have to work at 9 in the morning... starting next week I actually work real hours and get to observe classrooms!! Yeah, I finally get to get into my work and be a professional.
I really got to learn what all these silly noises my dog makes means. I think right now it means, WHERE IS DADDY?? I MISS HIM!!! soon puppy, soon. but not soon enough, just wait till he leaves us for 6 months. Fritz is going through that right now.
Much love and see you in a week Minnesota :)
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